Here are a few things I have been meaning to share with you all…
1) For the past couple of months, I have been mildly obsessed with watching Xteeener’s YouTube make-up videos. I stumbled upon her randomly while searching for tips on how to tweeze my eyebrows (yes, I had too much time on my hands), and I have been hooked ever since.
Xteeener is an aspiring make-up artist. She’s young, pretty and a lot of fun. Her videos are mostly tutorials mixed with product reviews. I have already (amazingly) learned SO much from watching her! Like who knew that eyeshadow primer potion would kinda change my life?
Here is her latest video of her best products list for 2011.
2) Okay, on to the next item of business. Let’s just preface this by saying, the score is now:
My Mother-in-law: 1, Carly – 0.
Remember the post where I mocked my MIL for giving me a pink fertility toilet? How could you forget it? Those rather unflattering images of me sitting on that pink toilet are probably burned in your brains.
Well, I stumbled upon this article in the LA Times awhile back, and I did a triple take. The newest little trend to take L.A. spas by storm is…wait for it…
Apparently squatting over a steam toilet is a normal fertility practice in Korea. Why did no one tell me this?! The article even describes it as a “centuries-old Korean remedy.”
Oh, dear MIL, I bow down to you. I’m not worthy.
3) L and I saw Black Swan. We are both big Natalie Portman fans, but unfortunately we weren’t big fans of this film. I won’t say much more as I don’t want to give it away for people that haven’t seen it. But, I will say that all I could think throughout the entire movie was that Natalie and Mila Kunis needed to eat a boatload of greasy cheeseburgers STAT. Their skinniness was distracting to me, which is odd because I don’t normally notice stuff like that.
4) Warning: Debbie Downer Pregnancy News Ahead.
Yet another month has passed, and still no pregnancy. This probably deserves an entire post, but I don’t really want to sit around whining and feeling sorry for myself anymore than I already am. Not getting pregnant month after month is frustrating. I am really starting to feel the weight of it all.
I updated you guys at the end of last year saying that I had met with a new OBGYN. She said we could start fertility testing right away, or we could wait a few months while I paid attention to my body and figured out if I was ovulating or not. I told her I wanted to fertility test right away. But I guess I lied, because I haven’t been back to see her.
Truth be told, I am still HOPING/praying/doing voodoo dances that we can get pregnant on our own. Call it naive or stupid. I know we are losing precious time, but I really want to believe that we can do this without all the poking, prodding, drugs, and sterile doctors’ offices. Ugh. If we have to get fertility help, we have to, and I’m fine with it. It’s just that this is a lot more tedious and heart-wrenching than I ever thought it would be.
It’s confusing, too. Some days I’m up. Some I’m down. Sometimes I’m emotional. Other times, I’m like a robot.
I shift gears pretty quickly these days. For example, one minute I want to watch make-up tutorials on YouTube, the next I’m lamenting about my sometimes seriously annoying existence.
See? Even reading through this post leaves me somewhat perplexed. What the HELL am I talking about?!