Thank you so much for all your sweet, supportive comments on my IVF posts. I went back and forth for weeks thinking about whether I would share our experience. I finally said to myself, “The women who read this blog are pretty much the best group of women I have ever “met” in my life. They will be kind. They will be gentle. Even if my emotions are heavy, and my experiences are not bright, shiny and happy, they will somehow try to understand where I am coming from and accept me.
Acceptance is such an important part of life. We strive to feel accepted. To be accepted. No one likes or wants to be judged harshly. I am no different. Actually, sometimes, I am overly aware of how others perceive me. But, for some reason, on this blog, I am able to open my heart and let it out. I share things here that I don’t share with anyone. I allow myself a level of vulnerability that I would never allow in real life. I am not a big sharer in real life. Friends throughout the years have described me as “mysterious”, “hard to get to know”, and “private”. I think they’ve said nicer things about me, too, but naturally, those are the descriptions that can keep me up late at night, deep in thought.
You guys are getting the real deal. Thank you for accepting me and loving me. It means more than I can ever possibly put into words. Through sharing my story, I hope I can help someone out there who may be reading along and needing support, too.