Well, guys, we did it. After four botched cycles, we actually completed our first IUI! We are currently starting the infamous two week wait.

I have been silent about all of this, mostly because I’ve been nervous as hell that something would go wrong, and the cycle would be cancelled…yet again. I have also been going through a series of emotional ups and downs, and have not really felt much like sharing.

I have been on fertility injections (because Clomid was a bust) since Day 3 (Day 1 = first day of your period) to make my eggies grow. I learned that giving myself injections is something I am not interested in doing. This was a surprise, because I’m usually pretty nonchalant when it comes to needles. Turns out I’m a little baby chicken, so L gave them to me. Major husband points scored there. I learned that a bloated, bruised tummy is something that comes along with the meds, and I’ve just got to suck it up. I learned to keep my cool when my doctor prescribed me “vaginal suppositories” for the next couple of weeks. Guess we can count a “sexy” Valentine’s Day out this year, huh?

This is all part of the game, and we’ve finally made it past the first quarter. Shit, we’ve somehow catapulted ourselves into the fourth quarter. How we do dat?

I still can’t believe our turn finally came around.

To be honest, this cycle of medication for the IUI was a lot more involved (and pricey) than I imagined. The nightly shots coupled with the side effects of the medication were a daily reminder of how much science and medicine are taking over what is supposed to be a natural part of life. L and I were talking the other night, and we agreed that this process feels odd to us. We feel like we are both a bit distanced from it. The drugs are doing their thing, and we are hovering overhead watching from the other side of the ultrasound machine. Except, my body is being used as the home base for this experiment, so I am tangentially involved in that I get to be a pin cushion, and feel all the shitty side effects.

I don’t know what to make of it at this point. I am still taking it one day at a time. I know this two week wait is going to drag. I just want to rest and feel like myself again. I want to nourish my body, and praise it for the miracle that it is. Thank you, body, for giving me the chance to participate in this crazy science experiment!

We’ve given conception and pregnancy the best chances we can possibly give them at this time. However, despite all that the medical world provides, L’s sperm still has to find my egg, and together they still have to decide if this is going to work or not. Nature gets the final say.

And now, we wait…



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    February 9, 2012

    My fingers and toes are crossed. Wishing you all the best!

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    The Pale Wisconsinite

    February 9, 2012

    I am crossing every finger and toe I've got and wishing so hard for you.

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    February 9, 2012

    Fingers crossed for you and prayers sent out!

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    February 9, 2012

    Wishing and hoping and praying so hard for you!

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    Colleen C

    February 9, 2012

    thank you for sharing this carly! add me to the list of people hoping for the best for you and L!

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    February 9, 2012

    Praying for you. I will e-mail you soon!

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    February 9, 2012

    Sending positive baby thoughts your way!

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    February 9, 2012

    Sending you positive and hopeful vibes your way. It is amazing how science has progressed yet, as you said, it is a very disconnecting it is to the natural process. Keep us posted and hugs!

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    February 9, 2012

    Wishing you both the best!!

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    February 9, 2012

    Many many many implanty vibes heading your way, Carly. Big hugs for you, I'll be thinking of you constantly.

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    February 9, 2012

    Carly… I've been a faithful reader of your blog for the longest time and have followed you on this journey. I've never posted before but I just want to say lots of luck to you and L. I know how much you want this baby and I pray that everything will work out for you.

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    Ali @ His Birdie's Nest

    February 9, 2012

    Saying a prayer for you & L! and sending all the good vibes I can up the freeway to you!

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    February 9, 2012

    Sending you all my baby dust and juju through this 2WW! Prayers for a baby in 2012!!!!! xoxo

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    February 9, 2012

    Fingers crossed for you!!

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    February 9, 2012

    Praying for the both of you Carly!!

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    February 9, 2012

    Good to hear your update! I am hoping the best for this one! I'm sorry for the frustration of failed cycles and even more so for the anxiety that is the two week wait!! It is almost unbearable sometimes! I will be sending lots of hope and good positive thinking out into the universe for you and L! xx

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    More Than Rubies

    February 9, 2012

    Sending you my thoughts and prayers! I wish you and your husband the utmost success! You absolutely deserve this.

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    Our Wired Lives

    February 9, 2012

    Positive juju coming! EKK..

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    February 9, 2012

    Good luck! Hope it works out!! Hang in there!

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    Geek in Heels

    February 10, 2012

    Good luck Carly! I'll be praying extra hard for you guys!

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    February 10, 2012

    Here's to hopin' this journey grows your family!

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    honey my heart

    February 10, 2012

    sending you good thoughts!! hoping for the best 🙂

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    Matthew & Rachel Hughes

    February 10, 2012

    This is an accomplishment in itself. It is tough and discouraging. Good luck! I am thinking positive thoughts for you.

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    TwoWishes Tara

    February 11, 2012

    That detached-from-the-medical-stuff feeling is exactly how I feel about my childbirth experience. In a perfect world, I'd go back and be able to do it all touchy-feely earth-mother. But you know, either way, the result was a happy healthy baby and that's all that matters. Hope your own process has the same result in the end!

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    February 11, 2012

    Yeahhhh!!! I'm so happy for you. Hope your 2 week wait goes quickly and ends with great news!

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    February 13, 2012

    Adding my prayers to the group, Carly! ♥

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    Kimberly Michelle

    February 15, 2012

    thinking nothing but happy thoughts…